as the mood says, im fedup with this shit! fed up with not being able to do what i wana do. not having money. not being able to be with the girl i like. not being able to just win the lotto and live a happy life. yea im fedup with not being able to. im going to be able to! i will! (insert furious face here) God Damnit i will! sigh... but when... when will this time come. im so tired of this shit. i get up go to work make shit money, go home and mope around, id do more if i had money. but i dont. 1 of my 2 paychecks every month goes to paying car insurance... i need a better job. this is bullshit. monday i search. monday i will begin actively and agressively searching for a better job. as soon as i find one im done with ikea. any of you that want shit from ikea better get it soon cause im outta there asap! this is the start to being able. getting a job that pays more so i have money. its a start. i must do this! i must find a way to make more money! so thats where i start. more things should, i hope fall into place. at the momment all i have is hope. eternal hope. false, maybe... halarious to think of... definately... sigh... its sad... but its there...so ive got it. ill keep ya updated...