...feeling that empty lonely hole in my life... ...i think its expanding... back from oregon. grandfather gave dad money and he used it to buy my bro a $1500 saxaphone and my sister a $900 clarinet. Oh and i got... ...nothing. so thats always cool. feels like every day of my life is the worst day of my life. (stolen from office space, i know) but that seriously is how i feel. theres this pit of loneliness within me that is slowly getting larger and larger. Once youve been happy, once you know how it feels to be loved, it makes it even worse than if id never known. Damn almost 6 months. damn loneliness. damn shitty people on this planet. seems like things are just gettin worse and worse for me. always better for others, just not me. and im relating to more than you know. ok enough about feelings. just makes this depressive state seem real. id rather hide reality away and get a few good laughs in. Ignoring what really matters seems to keep me from becoming completely lethargic. Ok time to go back to the fairy tale of my life...