not sure what too write about... clicked new entry, wrote the title, picked a mood, and now im not sure what to write. well i had a minature party last night. it was cool. ive got a lot of cheezit crumbs to pick up cause they got everywhere, but no biggie. but yea that was fun. work is work, its alright i guess, nothing super great happening there. ok so im a sweet nice guy...i know this... others know this... but my biggest problem is how shy i can be at times. like i want to kick my own ass for not doing what im thinking. like ill be thinking something, telling myself to do it, but for some reason its really difficult in this situation. i dont know whats wrong with me but theres something i should have done a long time ago that i still havent done and its really making me feel like a complete idiot. guh! wtf is wrong with me. i just get all these negative thoughts in my head, all these "what if this happens?" kinda things and well fuck i dunno. anyway theres that plus now theres the fact that im embarrassed about something and it sucks cause that just adds to me being shy. i need to woop my ass in gear and do what i wana do cause its really making me crazy. *woops ass* heh yea didnt work... ill have to try again later... <33