away message becomes diary entry... tired of the anarchy in which i live. i need there to be something to strive for. i need a girl friend that will be there for me. i need this sense of lostness to go away. I need to be able to concentrate on what is important. Right now i cannot do that. my life is in anarchy. i do a little here and i do a little there but nothing is ever achieved. It all needs to work out. I have nothing right now...well...very very little...but i am a long way from what i need. It seems right now what i need most is love. Yea i probly seem lame saying this but thats what it seems to come back to. i cannot focus on anything else it just seems that...well shit...i dont know!