you know that scene at the end of fight club where he has the gun in his mouth and then all the buildings fall. i feel like im stuck in a situation like that. if you havent seen fight club you are missing out. its a really great movie. i have it on dvd if anyone wants to watch it. anyway so yes i feel like there are 2 sides of me and im very conflicted. and the only way to get rid of that other me is to "kill myself" i put that in quotes cause thats kinda what he does to get rid of it. but im not at all saying i want to kill myself. dont get that mixed up. the best scene in that movie is at the end there where all the buildings fall in the background and the pixies are playing. great scene. great movie. kinda how i feel so i thought id mention it.