I have so much stuff on my mind. Especially with violin. Like, with senior auditions. I’ve been wanting to audition forever, and I’ve always stopped and said that I am not ready to audition each year. And NOW, I am even more scared.And, we have to know all these random scales and stuff and a really hard piece. AND, we have to sight read at a college level. And I am scared. All my conductors tell me that I am ready because I am associate Concertmaster. But, I dont know. I guess its the thought of not making it. My mom has given me the quote 1000 times of "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game" But, ugh I dont know. And... I don't know. Stuff with school And how, I have been really lazy, and haven't been doing my best. And its kind of like, what is better, straight A'S, or A&B with a LIFE? Lord. Help?