Shes my best friend and i should tell her everything, right? I can tell her why im crying, right? But how can i tell her without saying shes the cause... I had a bad day and when you get down to it, this has been a really bad week. I dont know what to say, though. I still feel like im not alloud to be sad... Today pretty much proved it. Im trying to hide it though. How do you hide tears...? Smile? What if you cant smile... What if its just faded with your laughter and lighter days. Thinking about them doesnt make anything better and no one really cares when i try to tell them... Lumps in my throut and flipping stomache, am i sick or are emotions taking over. I dont think i cant fight it anymore because now im just living one huge lie.