Theres this guy. My best friend. But why doesnt it seem that way? It seemed that way when i liked him. But now, i dont feel the need to talk to him. Now i dont know what to think cuz i dont know what he wants i dont know what i want... I dont really want to be friends because i dont want to liek him and have my heart broken again. But now im thinking it over, and i think i do. I hate it. I hate it all. Id do anything to move to troy... ANYTHiNG. My parents suggest moving to New York, Cali, Florida, i wouldnt mind... But if they ever consider moving anywhere, it should be Troy. Here, i have: Talin, Dayz, Abbey and Jacqueline who are actually true friends to me. In Troy i have: Mo, Hania, Mary, Katie, Camille, Rami, Todd, and like 902384209 more... Birmingham still feels so unreal. I always think about packing up and moving out... I wish i didnt, it only makes me want to be there more. But, i cant help it... I feel so alone. Theres no one here who understands me. I htink im gunna go write bronson a note and get this all over with. I told my parents tonight that I dont care what happens, im just not going to Derby or Seaholm for the rest of my life after this year. -LHM