well, today got off to a rather bad start. first my mom made me late to getting to mikes for the double date thing. then we took a nap, but miriah and i couldnt really sleep so we talked and stuff. then we got up and smoked a cigarette or two then we were off to the movies. things started going wrong again sorta..... me and miriah went into the movies then mike and sylvia went in for like 2 seconds and went outside to wait on jeremy. we sat there for a while watching the movie but soon got bored. things were just peachy for the most part. we went outside to see what was going on and then decided we werent going back in because the movie sucked. then jeremy got there and we sat around for a little while and then left. jeremy was being stupid and kinda got under my skin. eating paper in my car what the fuck? its stupid.... miriah started getting aggrivated or something. then we got to mikes. dropped them off there, and couldnt figure out what we were going to do. both of us were kinda sexually frustrated, but thats besides the point there are bigger things than that going on. we got to her house and her dad was sick and brothers were doing something i dont know what and didnt care. her dad said my mom called and i called her and she said i needed to come home for some stupid bull shit... well, miriah was already in some mood and i couldnt figure out what was wrong, then i told her that i had to leave and shegot more something. walked me to the car and we hugged and insisted that i leave so i dont get in trouble. i kept asking what was wrong but she wouldnt tell me. or said nothing dont worry about it. we said our love yous and departed. well, i got home and nothing was really said. i called her while making my dinner and she didnt seem to want to talk to me. her dad asked if she was going to be on the fone long and she said no. then said she had to go and hung up... now something to me sounds wrong with her, and im worried about it alot. ive been sitting around trying to figure out what the hell is or possibly wrong, and its killing me. i know she has mood swings on occassion but never like this. its got me kinda scared. cuz we have talked about some serious shit example: marriage, kids, rest of life... and i am comfortable talking about this stuff with her. cuz i love her so much its crazy. ive been contemplating so many things analyzing everything as dorky as that may sound. and this just is perfect in everyway. yeah i may be scared to tell my mom the way i feel about miriah, but thats because i know im going to get barraged with an attack of stupid shit that im not going to listen to but have to deal with anyway. and right now that is the only thing in my way.i wish my mom would just get the picture so i didnt have to tell her. but what ever i will tell her sometime...and yes i do want to spend the rest of my life with her. and i am willing to do what it takes to achieve that. she may not realize that right now but its true. and yes i want kids with her, you got a prob with that deal with it cuz i dont kare what you have to say about it. i understand that we've been together for only 3 weeks, but things have just been perfect, and felt like we've never been apart. and that is all that matters we agree on just about everything. well i have to go ill add more to this lil shindig tommorrow. laters mike P.S. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MIRIAH.