hm well, ill start off a lil odd today cuz thats how i feel. like ive been hiding my true emotions by hate for the past week or so. i say i hate ppl and all that crap. when really i dont mean it... like today i had a lil time to think about EVERYTHING. part of me misses miriah sooo much. i dont know why or anything. its all a huge fucking blur thats eating at me. i dont know what to feel or when to feel it. to make this all worst im torn between two other ppl maybe i dont need any fucking relationships. it all fucks me up emotionally and i loose focus in life and what I need to do to ensure the whole happyness and sucessfull thing. i dont know i dont know about anything theres so much doubt i have now.... hmmm, im going to stop cuz this is going nowhere and im getting lost again.... ill try to finish later.