i really thought today i was actually going to see Scott ....*sigh* sure ....Jeff promised me and still no sign of them ...there not home so they are probably still up at there new house ....i'm not sure if i can do this ..... i really hope i can i DON'T want to break up with him .... i mean i haven't had a GREAT boyfriend like him ....ever really ..... every other time it was childish but i'm serious now ....i really don't want to be with anyone else ...and if we do break up i trully think i'll be alone until i'm old enogh to get out of my house and find him ! ...ok Scott isn't perfect to some people ....and some people may think he's fat or mean or stupid or gay but he isn't he is the sweetest most caring person i have been with and i love so much ...i don't know what's goign to happen but i hope it ends up ok in the end ....