For some reason when i woke up i thought about Scott and how much i miss him and i fell to my knees crying ...so maybe i'm not doing ok but i am doing better than i thought.....i guess.... i hate being depressed i feel like i'm a wet blanket around people when i am ....i kinda feel if i didn't break up with him in 8th grade we would still be dating still ... o well another one of my STUPID decisions ..and i guess at 16 your not going to find someone your going to spend the rest of your life with but it happens but not with me ...Jeff Holt keeps on bugging me he knows since i'm single i can do stuff with him but i really really really don't want to i don't like him and plus i'm not over Scott and i don't think i will be for a long while...i still can't believed he moved ...i still can't believed we broke up ...sometimes i forget we did and when i realize it again i get depressed again ...Byes