This is going to take a while to write, and for those who are going to read this, I’m sorry. Everything is hidden; no reason to explain myself, because people wouldn't listen to me anyways. Every possible way I can express myself, people turn away, or they just blow me off, nothing new I guess. Its’ like I’m Unfaithful or something, I wont know until I’m able to find the reason or the person to show/explain who I really am. For every pathetic pick up line I say, every little action I do, people jump on me like everything I do is wrong. Its like, were did everybody go? Leaving me alone, drowning, once again. But now I guess I can explain my self, in terms where everyone should be able to comprehend… Was this a mistake; for me to be such a nice person, or do I deserve all this, that’s why I get fucked over so many times, or why I get treated like shit for sticking up for myself, or getting stuck with all the bullshit lies from the people who I thought cared about me!? Who knows…? I Think I should start putting the act back into session, the “act” of being happy. That fake, that bullshit smile I can show the world, so they can just leave me the fuck alone. But if I do that, then how the fuck am I going to be able to find that girl, the girl to make me smile, the girl I can trust with my life, the girl I can cuddle with for hours on end, the girl of my dreams, that girl, she needs to appear before my eyes, instead of teasing me, from what kind of world I could be living in, instead of this fake hypocritical society of back stabbing bastards, and protect me from being so emotional… Yes I said it, Emotional. Not that fucking “Emo” shit, I mean Emotional. For example, that it’s really easy for me to get hurt emotionally. But when people are in my face, talking shit, ill laugh at them, because they wont do shit, even though they say they will do something, ill just laugh in there face, until they walk away. People need to understand that I’m not afraid of them, because I have no reason to be afraid. The past means everything to me, even all the shit that tears me down, and makes me feel like I’m worthless. There is nothing I can do now for my faults, my mistakes, all I can do now is stand up and make sure nothing happens like that again, be the bigger person instead of stooping down to the level of the bastards that think there better then me/everyone else. All of my responsibilities are up to me to take care of, no one else’s. If there is currently a rumor that is said about me, come to me first before assuming anything. I’m the kind of person that will tell my friends anything, I have no reason to lie, its stupid, a waste of time, not something I can do to my friends, same if I had a girl friend, I couldn’t lie to her, like I have in the past… I don’t know why I’m typing all of this; it’s almost a full page on Microsoft Word, wow almost 570 words. But I guess I’m done for now, maybe ill type more later… 580 Words..