Yeah soo.... i have to much on my mind right now?? Friends, Family, School, Drama, Prom, Graduation, My Future... Basiclly. just dont know what i want, i dont know if anything can help at this point. New Song: Trapt - Enigma Do we know how to get the message across We turn the lights off to find a way out No time to get through to grasp what was lost Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you What are you thinking, it's so misleading Is it not for me to know, I think it's just hard for you to show We never spoke in the words that we want We turn the lights off to find a way out We've never chosen to keep what we've got Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark I thought it would be nice to lie down and close my eyes It never occurred to me that I am already asleep Don't be the one to be let go Don't be the one to be alone No One Wants To Be Left Alone... Yeah the song basiclly sets my mood right now. I dont know what i can do about my future, i cant even tell myself what i want tomorrow or the next day, or even right now as im typing this. There just seems to be so much running through my mind, and still thinking about the past, and how fucked up it was. So much i wish i could change.. so much i wish could had made different if i was only given the fucking chance. God, why couldn't any one just let me show them what i can do. I mean there is so many things to go back upon, but i just want everything to back the way it was... with everything.. people not moving away, people acctually still keeping in touch with me. My old friends that i have lost, the friends ill never forget about. Those are the people i want to be there, even all the friends i have now, i love you all, i mean some of you have helped me out, and others have just watched me suffer.... I dont know what good they are but.. their still there. Back to the subject of my future, what are my options at this moment, College or just working, Single or taken, keep friend ships or end them, making new ones or staying with the ones i have now, just for get about everything or let it bother me... I cant walk away from this, there is so much on my mind, i cant get it all out, and i cant tell people, because i dont want them to think there is somthing wrong with me. i mean i have explained some of it now.. and everyone can read this shit, i just dont know what else i can do about it. i mean if i type it out, am i just making it harder or easyier?? and i just getting people all worried about me?? or will people read this and be like... dan shut up and stop bitching?? you never know.. people just tend to... be two faced. But what the fuck can you do? i mean i have tryed so hard to show people who i really am, and look at what is has gotten me so far. I have the respect but shit is still being talked about me... To much of the same shit.. When will i just be able to walk away from this place?