John hasn't called. It's been a long time since I've talked to him, and I hadn't even noticed until I started talking about Logan with Laura the other day, and then she mentioned how John hates him, and I started thinking about him again, and it hurts. I feel like he's forgotten me, but what am I to him anyway? I'm no one special honestly, but I did like that I was his "bestfriend" for awhile. I just, I miss him, and I love him, and it hurts. Spenser called the other day, and told me to call him back sometime, except, I lost my wallet, or it's at Alex's somewhere which means A)Casey has eaten it, B)Alex in her cute way, has hidden it safely in a shoebox with other things of mine C) She doesn't know. if I lost it A) it's at school, and I can get it back if someone turned it in B)someone took it, because it's a nice one, or C) it's in my room somewhere. Anyway, back on the subject, he probably hates me, which is okay, because I only met him the one time, and it was nice, but I honestly didn't think it would turn into anything, he's a cute kid, but I didn't think he was going to like me very much. Also, I'm not very attached, although I think I aught to be, because on some level we are together; however, it's not the best relationship in the world. Alex's family hates me, for something I didn't do. Wonderful. love.