Anymore I find I drink myself to sleep when I'm just too awake to do so naturally. This isn't a wonderful plan because mostly I find that I just get a splitting headache in the mornings. But what is life but agony? So I can't go to John's today, again because of my mother's doing. I don't know why she is so against anyone having any fun, especially when she's not even around, she's off at the hospital, thinking she's a good person. She is the sole reason why I'm not doing anything today. I've never liked her, I don't like how she acts, how she talks, I don't like her sense of humor, or the things she says. The fact that she doesn't let anyone do anything doesn't help me like her anymore. I'm just going to listen to Motion Sickness all day, and hope something happens that will give this day a good reason for me to get up tomorrow. FATEN EDIT i say this because she wrote her first entry, so i'm reposting mine. love is a spell bound hatred September 10, 2005 It's a shot heard throughout the world. I think it hit me because I'm bleeding. new diary. my old was too.. cliche? I'm not sure, but I was tired of it, and the subjects it seemed to bring out in me. i like not being able to be found.