If deception is our nature, I say we are making it far along the lines of evolution, and that the idea of a higher power is obsurd based solely on how well you have become at being deceitful, and how magnificent you hurt people. You are a god at tearing people down, and I hope it kills you. These ideas that people throw at me as though they are going to save me, it's all so idiotic, these ideals of the common man are not going to save me. I don't know where to look, and I have no one to ask. I wish I was religious, I could ask God, but I am not religious, and I don't believe in God. I am still respectful of other peoples' beliefs, argo the reason I capitalize the g in god. I feel pointless, and I am consumed with these false ideas, and these unimportant arguements. I shall stay away from writing until I can figure myself out better. this was only to let you know I'm alive. go to camera tell alex, her name isn't colby, and acting fake and saying you are tired of it, doesn't make you any less fake.