Like a desease I have overgrown my space, and now like my host I am dying, what ever am I to do? My whole life is just a falling tower and no one is around to stop the wreckage from taking innocent lives. I feel as though I am on a spiral that I am not going to be able to swim out of, and I am pulling down anyone of my heros if they try to help. All I want is to talk to Cathy like we used to, but that would take away from her time, so that is an unfair wish, which means it will never be granted. Also, it feels as though Ally thinks I am ghost, which I'm not. I have the same views and ideas, I am just hiding from all the pain they have brought.
i hate it when i reallyy want to talk to myy friends, but i can't bring myself to do so. i don't know, it's almost as if everything that's important to me is stupid to them. or it doesn't mean as much. so i don't want to waste their time on me. i don't know if that's the feeling youu were talking about. my best friend thinks that i am a ghost. because i'm always quietlyy absorbed in my thoughts.