From now on, I'll be using the titles as my current weight. But that's irrelevant. Here's what went on today: I hadn't studied for the Spanish test, the Math test, OR the AP World History test today. So I spent my before-school time studying for those three, up until first period when I took the Spanish test, and then I studied for Math until fourth, and then AP World until sixth. I know that sounds like a lot of tests, but you have no idea how nice it felt to be able to be finished with it all by sixth period. (Although I would have liked it if my schedule had allowed for me to have lunch before AP World so I hadn't have gotten an 83...) I ran into you, like, a billion times today. It was weird, seeing you acting the way you do in front of other people. Sort of quiet, actually, at least in the halls. And then I walked by and you walked in front of me and did that thing I always do with people, where I go one way and they go the same way. You know what I'm talking about. And I just laughed and looked at you and you put your arm around my waist and then left. You told me last night that you want me to go to a concert with you on February 15th. I told you I didn't know what I was doing on that day, but Sam S-M said I should say yes, so I eventually did, even though I still don't know what I'm doing on that day. (Or that my parents will say yes. It's a Thursday night, a school night.) And I'm probably paranoid, but since your ex-girlfriend was the one who introduced you to Trevor Extor's music in the first place, I can't imagine her NOT being at the concert. It's at a restaurant, and it's an acoustic concert, and I really don't want her there because if you take me, then you're TAKING me, you know? Whatever. While I'm on the topic of you, I'll just get it out there: All your friends want to see us together. I'm not going to lie; it would be nice to actually be with you. But I'm not going to push you towards dating me, either. Tim stopped me in the hallway today, gave me a hug, and then said, "You need to hook up with Harrison." And I was like "Excuse me?" but he just grinned and walked away. That's not as surprising as what happened at the end of the day, when Ryan (the kid that's confessed to still liking me) gave me this really long hug and, upon letting go, shoved his hands in his pockets and said, "So when are you and Harrison going to date each other and just be done with this already?" It turns out that the topic of the two of us is all they've talked about for the last two days, although I'm sure it came up when you dropped me off yesterday. I just wonder if you know about their master plan. In other news, Mike has begun to worry about me. I didn't eat lunch today (duh) and he noticed. After offering me his bag of pretzels first, then a little juice box thing (Mike's still sort of twelve), he was like, "I'm really worried about you." So I scoffed at him and said he was reminding me of David, and he said, "David's worried about you because he wants to get in your pants. I'm worried about you as a friend." I ignored that statement and, eventually, he let it go. Leanna asked me if I'm on a "diet or something". I refrained from responding: "or something" because I know she's smart enough to figure it out. This is why I can't just hook up with you. If what Tim said is supposed to be different from what Ryan said, and Tim wants to know what's stopping me from just hooking up with you, that's it, and that's what I'm going to tell him. That hooking up with you is a mistake if it doesn't mean anything, and everything has been so screwed up lately that I can't add another fuck-up to the list.