If you hate I understand, I know you say that you don't but inhumane not to by mad at me. I hate that I am having feelings like this, I shouldn't be feelings like this. It's not right and it's not fair to you. I am very sorry that I didn't tell when you came over the other day but I couldn't bare to see the expression on your face and to hear the slamming of the door. This is why I called the break because I knew this was going to happen. I knew that I was going to have feelings for another guy and I knew that I was going to betray. So I wanted to have a break, to put space in between us so I could get my head clear. That didn't work the way I wanted to. I don't know how to tell that I still love you and I don't think that you would believe me anyways. I am sorry that I didn't turn out to be the love of you life. I am just the girl that broke your heart. It kills me to know that I cause you pain. I knew it would end this way. Even thought it hasn't ended. Greg, I want you in my life and I want to be with you more than anything. But I am scared that I will hurt even more in the future. I guess I can't really put it into words what is going through my head. But I wish I knew what was going through yours. I am soo sorry that I ended up being this person... the person to hurt you.