Is when I last type in this blog. I have look back at my dairies, I was a depressed person. I am afraid that hasn't really changed. I am with the same guy I was with when I started this diary. Now, I am in college and no longer 10th grade, wow how time flies. I have decided to major in Theatre. I've always had a flair for the dramatics, noticed? My love life is on edge, as usual. He is my best friend, my everything. Looking at the past entries and seeing the comments he made. I feel like he doesn't feel that way anymore. I can't explain it. Maybe it's just horomones or stress. Maybe its me being paranoid for no reason. See, I love to be the drama queen. My day can be going perfectly well and I have to find something to argue about or I feel as if I have wasted the day being happy. Maybe my constant battles with him are to prove his feelings for me. My way of showing myself that he does love me and would never leave me. So, please to tell me why I have challenged his heart everyday for almost 3 years? You would think that I could get it through my thick skull that he LOVES me! But I can't. I know that it won't last. I know that we will one day grow apart or he will get fed up with my battles and leave. Then, what? Three, Four, maybe even Five years of my life wasted? No, never wasted. He was never wasted time and never will be. He is my love. MY love.