Well.... Looks like I've grown up.

by pennylanee
Listening to: AOL radio.
Feeling: caffeinated
Tonight on the car ride home, i grew up. I don't know what it was.. I just realized i was sick of being irrespondsible, and young. My life is at its absolute best. And I know its only up from here. I'm in a real relationship. A healthy one where I'm happy. Happier than I've ever been. And He loves me. Not just words. With meaningless dialect. Everything that comes out of his mouth, i know he means. I've never trusted anybody so much. I just want this happiness to last forever. Anyone else ever felt this way?
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did you use to be the diary pennylane?
oh ok i was just wondering sence i once knew the pennylane that was takin but is went friends only so i wanted to find out ya know what i mean haha.
by the way i like you background
ahhh cute diary! i love the picture of the camera taking a picture. and the background :)
I think you took from my entry, exactly what I wanted whoever read it to. I'm definitely starting to realize that a person can only take so much.. but they can only do so much. For some reason I just can't stand up to her. I know that if I did she would make things worse for me.. some friend, huh?
Your writing is amazing too. I can't relate to it because I've never had something like that, but I think I know how you feel because of how great you said it. I'm happy for you and don't let him go. =)
I couldn't have said that better myself. The good news is: she leaving for college in about a month. She's a year older than me.. so right now I'm waiting it out so I can start over and make the most of my senior year.
I don't mind. I'll add you to my friends list too if that's alright with you =)
He sounds like the one your with now..?
What do you want to know about the boy I was talking about? Before we were together I didn't know him. We goes to a different school and we met through friends and hit it off right away. I guess we just moved to fast. I didn't know him well enough before I fell for him.
lol, yeah that's him. We used to be really happy and then it all came crashing down. He was the first guy that I ever really let it.. I love him and I trusted him. And then he cheated on me.. and it was all downhill from there.
yeah I know.. believe me.. I can't really explain it. You're going to think I'm stupid but I took him back a few months later because it was a "one time thing" and he "earned my trust back." I know it sounds bad but I can't explain it. Once I fell for him there was no going back. I finally got to a point where I could let go.. for the most part. But he's my weakness. Maybe I'm just not as strong as I should be.
I wish I could tell you something different but that's the truth.. I have to get off here for a while but I can explain more later. I know that it's no excuse.. but love can make you do things that you'd think you would never even consider.