What has it been, 3 times this week? My poor boyfriend. I swear I might push him away with my late night calls. I don't know what happens. I was so happy when I came home.. but then, I lost it. I don't know what it is about hearing you, that makes me all better. Tonight I had my first full on panic attack in a LONG time. Numb Arms, shaky legs.. the whole works. "Nobody wants a broken girl" I hope through all my complications, worrying and 3 a.m phone calls.. You love me still.