I'm feeling... unsatisfied. It seems as if i cannot get enough of this boy. I have been with him everyday for nearly a week and yet, I wish he didn't just leave. MAN. This cannot be normal. eh. Whats normal? We're not normal to begin with. Tonight was... eh. Well the beginning of tonight. he was just different. And i was just pathetic. Things got better. Katies proposed visit to live here is leaving me caught in the middle. Ofcourse I want the best for her, which would mean living here. I'll have to deal with the fact that she is a million things that i will never be. I'm feeling sicker each day. Im thinking that my infection isnt going away and im out of medicine. What now? I just want school to start. School itself means seeing Mike much less. How will I do this? Im sensing alot of rough nights ahead of me. Just keeping myself busy..(nikki, steven, amber, katie)I hope that will be enough. I have nothing to worry about. Right?