Thank god for Steven today. UGH. Damn birthcontrol. Too many hormones and mood swings. Ive been down before, but today it got out of control. And there was no reason for me to be so sad. Mom made me smoke a cigarette to calm down. PLEASE don't be mad at me. And if you are? Maybe you don't quite understand. My emo tendencies and sadness isnt always around. But im a girl and i have a heart and im not always happy. Only when your around. Im alot better now. Steven called at the perfect time. Im supposed to go over there just me and him to really talk when he gets back from his dads. And I'm still waiting for you.