wow! I'm so tired. I'm at school right now! I'm supposed to be writing my English paper so I just finished it and printed it out.. so I'm ok! I stayed up until like 3 in the morning on the phone.. so I am really tired.. and I can't wait to get home and go to sleep. Matt might come over tonight and watch a movie then go home.. he wants to spend time with me and my brother... (MY BROTHER!) wow! Mom's gonna be there... so it'll only happen if she says it's ok. I'm going to Cami's this weekend... I don't think Jamie really wants to spend time with me YET.. but that's understandable. I got a doctor's appointment tomorrow.. I'm always scared they're gonna tell me something I don't want to hear. Jamie I want you to go with me. I have this stupid bump back and last time I had it she went with me. In so many ways I just hope they tell me I'm dying... atleast then I'll kinda feel like I have something to live for.. if that makes any since at all. But I really am happy I'm alive.. and I get to watch my neice and nephews grow up. And maybe hopefully one day have some kids of my own.. but not for a LOOOONG TIME! I got to talk to Bailey the other night. I really care about her a lot I feel like my mom cause I met her online.. but her b/f asked her to marry him. she hasn't answered him yet.. I hope she says yes and that she's happy.Travis called me early this morning wanting me to call his principal and pretend I was his mom. I was too tired for that shit! He said he wondered if Jamie would do it later. I told him I didn't know but I had to go get ready for school and he could call me after school and tell me what happened.. I really hope he doesn't call tho. I was tired I didn't know what I was saying hopefully he'll forget about it. Well.. I guess I'm running out of things to say.. I'm gonna go back to class now! Blessing of the day: Bob and George Love a.a.f. Keska Lynn