I've been doing a lot of thinking these past few days and despite how much I keep thinking back to the past, I think it's best that's where it stays. Thinking back to those times only hurts me because things are so different now than they once were, but also better.

I have new friends. I'm in a better place than I was. And maybe back then wasn't as good as I remember. Nostalgia is a powerful thing.


I spent the whole afternoon talking to some really amazing people in a Skype call. They're like my new family and they strengthen me and help me feel special/whole. They help keep me out of the pit of depression I used to live in and I honestly I don't know what I'd do without them.


Currently, I'm making dinner (Chicken Stir Fry), watching a friend stream, and then going to play WoW with my fiance after we're done eating. I don't think you can get any closer to heaven than that.

I'm really looking forward to this Monday. Anthony (that's the name that my fiance chooses to go by now) is taking me apple picking. I'm really excited because I haven't been in such a long time and it's something I remember that I really loved at one point.

So yeah - them lovely thoughts are quite nice.