Have you ever just wanted something so bad that was a really good thing but you know that there is a possibility you might not get it? Have you ever been comforted by words, but only for a short while? Have you ever wanted Him to comfort you with knowledge? Have you ever tried to convince yourself that something you want will happen, and try to get others to do the same? This sucks. Where is the motivation? If this isn't going to happen, what motivation do I have for going on? Is this just temporary? I was commanded to teach. How much will I teach? Will I teach everything I want to, or just everything He wants me to? What if our teaching goals are the same? Nothing would make me happier.