"And I who love you so much, what am I going to do?" So this is what it's like. To humble someone, and to be humbled. To understand, and to be understood. Am I understood? I hope so. She says it feels weird to her to start showing affection again. It's only been a few days, but she says its weird. A longing just to hold her hand. That's all I can think of. To hold her, just to hold her. Do you know what I have? Something great. Someone great. And it's hard not to be able to show that person just how great she is. I feel guilty. I can not complain too much though. Because I felt inadequate, it lead to this. "Alienation of Affection." Although that term means something else, I think I could take it literally right now.