Life goes on. That's the cold hard truth. As much as I want to, I can't go back and change the past. We all just have to learn to live with what's happened. Relationship's change, and dreams get shattered, but we all just have to do the best we can for the most people. I found that the best way to get rid of memories is to replace them with new ones. But what type of memories do I want? I have many things to look forward to in life. Right now, I have a good job working in an auto body repair shop, I have a pretty decent car, and I have plenty of money for dates and fuel. On a more religious note, I hold the Melchizedek Priesthood, and I do every thing I can to keep myself clean and pure, worthy to be called an Elder in the church. I have a mission to look forward to in less than a year. For two years, I will give myself completely to the Lord's work and be able to become close to perfect, having an unyielding faith, a deeper understanding of eternal principles, and charity towards everyone. Back to now, there are things that I must do. I need to go on dates. There are plenty of girls I would like to take out and spend an evening with to get to know them better and treat them with the utmost respect. I also need to maintain a positive outlook on life. I know that I have everything going for me, but sometimes I ask myself what I'm doing here. No more of that. I have too many things to loose. In the blink of an eye, I can loose everything. But I will not let that happen. There is nothing more important in my life right now than preparing for and serving an honorable full time mission. I know that I have many friends whom I can count on that can edify me in that calling, and I know that I must not lean on myself, but rather on God. I will not make him cry for me.