As christmas gets closer and closer, things are seeming to get more and more complicated, i mean... i thought as second sememster came closer the stress of school and all the dumb shit that goes on around it would die down, but it seems like it never ends. It's like those first few days of school where everything sucks because you have to go back to some superficial community that is built around something that nobody really seems to care about A.K.A education. the social life is obviously way more important to a freshman,softmore, and senior then the education that they are actually going to school for. i mean there are "fun" ways of learning but schools have a whole different meaning of "fun"...and in these past few months as each day goes by it still seems to feel like those first few days.... i need a change, or a break at least. christmas will do it....i think. my parents have been so good to me, i mean i have given them such a hard time these past months and they seem to always have enough patience to put up with me, sometimes i can be such a handfull and i know it, but im much to stubborn to admit to it very oftern so this entry is very rare. don't forget it! so i'm pretty much grounded from life, yeah, thats right...i guess im not no longer one of those softmores who like to have a social life, but it's okay. i mean im kind of glad, i need a break from all this. and i can still hangout with jodi and riley! and those are my two closest friends so i guess thats all i really need. it just sucks that i cant got ot another party for the rest of the year and that im not allowed to have sleepovers at anyone's house for two months or th fact that i can pretty much forget about going to shows for the rest of the year, but other then that. i got what i deserved.