i'm really sad. i cant put any new music on my page because the place i was getting it from is down! im about to cry. i just got home about an hour ago from bc. unfortunatley i didnt get to go snowboarding with my cousins at all! that was a huge downer. the whole time i was in bc all we did was go over my grandparents will and assighn things to everyone. it was pretty hard. and my family was all arguing because they were being greedy. honestly you would think a bunch of adult siblings could act their age and think about what really matters. all i heard all week was "well you cant have that my daughters should have that" or "that is worth alot why didnt i get willed that". i dont understand how my family could ever be so greedy it dosent even seem like my aunt cared that her mother died, she was far more occupied with how much the stuff that she was getting was worth. my dad and mom and i were the only family who didnt ask for that much and everyone was angry at us because grandma wanted my family to have the stuff that was most valuble. we hadnt even chosen it. it just made me sick...i cant get over it, im finding it really hard to accept the fact that most of my fathers brothers and sisters can be that heartless. anyways enough of that. i got to read the 23rd salm at my grandmothers funeral, i was so nervous but i read it all and got it over with and by the end of it everyone congratulated me and i gues i didnt even look nervous. i think my grandmother would have been proud of me. im so tired last night(new years)was fun but i ended up having a surprise attack allergic reaction(i still dont know what it was from). my throat swoll up and my thounge was swommen too, i could hardly breath. it was the scariest thing that has happened to me in a long time. i actually thought i was going to die. i ended up overdosing on benadrill and passed out in the car on the way back to my hotel with my parents. great new years eh! hahahaha it was fun....i wouldnt have been doing anything better if i was home since im grounded. and i was happy i spent my new years eve with my cousins. it was cute. the other day at my grandma's funeral i looked around and i noticed how every single old lady there had white hair glasses and the same expression on their face, my grandmother was never like that she always made sure she looked perfect and never in her life had white hair.