*yawns* im so tired today. no reason apart from its a skool day.also feeling extremely stupid. yesterday, i gave this yr 7 girl my mobile number to give to her brother (a guy who ive been friends with for years). i wrote 'please call me!' at the bottom, because i wanted to get together with him and james, coz i haven't seen them for about three years now. they were (and hopefully still are) the best friends ive ever had. but john (the first boy) didnt phone me. i wonder if hes scared coz hes got the wrong idea about my 'please call me!'. i just have to hope that his sister just forgot to give it to him, or that he had too much homework last night (hes in yr 10 so he might have GCSE coursework). *sighs* then i had a dream where we (me john and james) were in town, laughing and catching up with other, and mucking around like we used to. then james asked me out (sumthing ive hoped for for a while)...and then i woke up. i almost cried when i realised that it had still been three years since id actually set eyes on either of them. he'd better phone soon, or i dont no what i'll do. mums not helping either coz she keeps saying that john thinks i fancy him, but i dont. he's just one of my best friends in the whole world. its james i fancy (but im not telling mum that or she'll never let me forget it.) xxx