he still hasn't phoned me. why? well i suppose i can blame his sister, she cant remember if she gave my number to him. i mean, she cant even remember what she had for breakfast this morning, so i suppose my number getting to her brother has no chance. i dont know whether i can believe that or not though. *sighs* im so depressed today. yesterday my mum shouted her head off at me for not talking to her or dad about my options, and she said that i was trying to cut them both out and do this on my own. i was just like well duh! its my life, and everyone (including her) is telling me that i should chose what i want and not get swayed by others. the only reason she wants me to talk to her about that is so she can do exactly that. its my fucking life, not hers, and i can do what i want. then she went ahead and said i dont even have a life. so i just walked off after that. she keeps saying (or rather yelling) that i should talk to her more, so i just keep silent and dont answer. hehehe that winds her up more than anything. then she told me to go and read the bloody connexions booklet, coz there was some good advice in it. yeah right. its written by people who say 'we want to help' in that really annoyingly happy and reassuring voice, that really means that they just want to poke their (often overlarge) noses into your life. i spent the entire time reading the booklet going 'you're bastards, you're all just nosy bastards' under my breath, and not paying attention to a word of it. *sighs again* so im going to cope with it all by being happy. happy, happy, happy. :) *grins hugely* its not working. i still cant take my mind off any of it. o well. its a cruel, cruel world, and life's just constantly out to get you. xxxxx