well,im back, i guess. sorry i havent updated in a while, but we had a two week break and i havent had the chance. the first week i was over at my grandads with my mum, coz we had to look after him. the second week i was on holiday in majorca. during that holiday week, i did absolutely shit all. well, as far as my family could see. i was actually mentally pounding my brain, trying to unblock my mind. it kinda worked. i think. just give me a while and i reckon i'll have new things to write about. if i dont kill myself trying to get my feelings out before i get a chance to... damn, lost my train of thought. i also think its time to change the look of my diary so there we go. im feeling kinda confused bout life at the moment. still. i dont no whats real and whats not anymore. im living in a dreamworld thats halfway between reality and, er, dreams. sorry if im worrying anyone, (especially my prophet) but i cant say whats wrong coz i dont no myself.(im sure ive already said something like this, so sorry for the repetition if i have.) bye xxx