yuck i'm looking back at this past year and wow it has sucked. like last december my moms' aunt died and then the next month her other aunt that she was really close to died. then in march my grandpa died. and then in october my grandma died. now my other grandma has to go in the nursing home. and besides all that i've been through so much crap. like the most crappy relationship ever. i never really got in trouble before only stuff like having an attitude or something like that and then this summer i got in bigg trouble. i was always like getting straight a's and last year in school i got 3 c's and 1 a. and then everything with justin is just making me so mad. like i've been waiting way too long. and i don't know what for. like he has all the control and it just drives me crazy because like i went through this whole control thing with my exboyfriend and now i'm like do i really want this? yuck when will this year just be overrrrrrr