wow this month has been so busy. so much has happened i forgot where i left off. things with justin have been cool... i guess. i'm learning to play songs on my guitar. yehhh... school has been boring-er than ever. christmas break can't come soon enough. my grandma passed away last week and the family all just left. i wen't into the city last night. it was cool. i've been doing lots of christmas shopping and lots of wrapping. i'm so bad at wrapping and it takes me forever... so that's not fun. things with friends have been weird... i can't really explain it though. oh and exboyfriends are so obnoxious! i hate him so much. he imed me the other day and he was like "i see you at school but you don't say hi to me." and i was like "i never see you"... i do i just act like i don't :o). then he was like "oh well i'm glad you don't hate me. i was going to say after all that we've been through you hate me. after all we did" and i was like "wow" because that is really messed up that he would say that to me. and he was like "are you mad at me?" and i was like "no i think its really messed up that you would say that though" and he was like "oh well it was really funny though" and i was like what the hell. i mean he's making it seem like i was a slut. we didn't do anything likke that much and anything we did was like what he pressured me into. oh i hate him so much. i hate the way he treats me like crap. he like changed me so much and i try really hard not to think about him but when he will like go up to my friends and like be all nice to them and try to be my bff. that is so messed up. yuck i hate boys!