i have to go get my swim suit. that i "payed" for and i dont want to go. because ive quit and it hurts to even see my coaches. yeah. well last night when i went back. my coach reed was like " you know you dont have to quit".. " well why would you want to?" " are you going to do it nex year??" im sorry but i dont know. stop asking and i dont KNOW!. i just want to actauclly contrait on school. and getting my grades up!. and making my parents happy.. yeah.. seems werid.. that im just going to be a nerd for awhile... lol but i dont care.. i need to REALLY contrait. i mean i have good grades. but there going to drop. ugh!. stress. is coming my way and im not liking it. lol. yea..... // anyways.. im going to drews tonight. to see the movie "dogeball" great!. lol. yeah.. well going to go. byebye!!