Today was wierd. I watched about 5 movies... I feel lethargic and unmotivated which is unusual for the way I've been acting lately. I just don't feel like anything is worth doing. I'm feeling... not really UNHAPPY, but dissatisfied. I think I'm just having an offday. Today I babysat 3 little boys. One of them referred to his penis as his "Kicky". I've never heard that one before. Anyways, they were good boys and it was a good time. I forgot how engaging childrens movies can be. But then i remembered that I still am a child. I can learn much more from little kids than they can learn from me. I want to be around them all the time, and watch them do funny little kid things and act like they know how everything works. I like seeing their eyes light up when you say something that interests them, or when you mention cotton candy or reading them their favorite books. I want to be a kid again, but I don't think I've ever really been good at being one. I've always wanted to be old.