Its the summer, and people are changing and i dont no if it is in a good way, i realized that some people dont treat me right, like anthony for example he use to say i love you and i would say it back, but no he dated a gurl and we didnt talk, and no that he isnt with her things arnt quite the same. But when he is high i love him i remember the old days that i use to spend with him when he tried to do anything that would make me happy, that he would say sweet and hunny, and say he loved me for no reason at all. Why cant i have that kind of anthony all the time sometimes i cry cuz i miss him, he was my frist true love and i have none him sence 6th grade, most people dont belive me when i say i truuly love anthony. im going into 9th grade now. And this is the secound year apart from him, but no one understands how close me and anthony are when he is haveing a good day. People are changing for the worse, and it tears me up inside, but sometimes you have to let people make stupid mistakes so they can figure out you were right in the first place. Firends well i guess i should say x fwends dont think i care and dont belive me, and it hurts but i am sick of saying every time she doubts her self that i care. and im giving up is that wrong? i truly dont no anymore. I am amune to pain from fwends the only ones that make me cry are Michael T. and Anthony. which is sad because there are others that i should care about, but i truly dont. Michael and me keep fighting over stupid little things it all started over a gurl he fucked, and it tottally pissed me off. i mean when i first found out i wasl ike okay i was thinking that he did it cuz he loved or super cared about her, but then i saw a pic and he told me he just wanted a lil something from her. and iono ifelt like does he just want that from me. and ever one says thats him thats his personality, but i want to think differently i need to think differently, i care a bout michael alot i truly do. and then last night he was messing with his cat, like making it freak out n shit, and iono it made me mad cuz i told him before not to do that cuz i love cats andall, and he did it anyways os i got mad, i wasnt really that pissed and then he got all mad cuz he thought i was freakin out over something small, when really i wasnt htat mad. and his fwend Robert and to interven and come me down, cuz michael wanted to tal tko me, and then he was saying that he wanted to be open, and honest. and yeha iono, what to do aobut him, cuz he is being really weird. so i started crying last night and his fwends had to make me all better, and michael thinks i like his fwends because i talk to him and he makes me laugh and lala so yeah Anyways most peopel dont no that i drink and im getting drunk right now. yeah fun stuff anyways i better go before i say somethign stupif or that im gonna regreat. Luvs