I cant do this. i cant like him. i cant ignore the other him. i cant be all nice. i cant enjoy his face. it just isnt fair. i just wanna leave and live in maine. or chicago. or palatka. or london. or anywhere really. i am just tired of everyone's attitude.. i mean they may think i'm being overdramatic. i just cant take life anymre.. i'm not gonna take my " lazy" grades, make "lazy " plans with friends which i have a strong feeling would get canceled since no one has time for me. I want to have.. someone? somthing? anything? my friends are clueless..i wish i could get over it... get a job, life, copper pipes. Believe that song ..i know i'm jsut fooling myself. i cant take it. i thought i could help chris, but i havent thought of me. if giselle is bored or doesnt want to be alone with jess and andy, i go. if crit and ern want me to go to pho, i go. .. i jsut need someone to " go " for me..