missed alot of sleep. I'm sorry i had you stay up to only fall asleep at four and wake at seven. i cant beleive its happened this way. I'm actually pretty happy minus occasional spat, but i dont have to worry about us like i did with uh allen. stupid middle name references. i cant do that with you. everyone calls you by your middle name. wow. i really care about you but i'm scared to go the extra mile to love. i dont want you to push me away. I dont want to deal with it again. you know how it was with him. the whole sexual thing we talked about was just on both our nerves. i just rather you do things without me having to ask. and certain things you do and i like! I'm stressed and worried if i'm even going to school. Its great you cared that i'm happy and not havin to deal with denisse and angie. thank you and for all its worth, even if you never read this, i love you.