So, it really hasn't occurred to me yet why the hell I haven't had any sort of relationship in OVER A YEAR.... I know, you're probably saying "oh, it's just a slow time." But no, it most certainly isn't. If it were a slow time, there wouldn't be people who like me, but "don't want a girlfriend currently"... I mean, quite honestly, I see that as an excuse to cover up something else they're just too nice.. I guess... to say to me. I mean, I can understand there's other stuff going on... but it's not like I'm high maintenance! And, if I really truly liked someone, I'd be damn well willing to make exceptions to be with them.... but, *sigh* maybe that's just me.... Maybe there's something wrong with me, I dunno! It just really frustrates me that it seems nobody really cares that way towards me at all..... Because I sure as hell care for people that way.... I just... wish it would be returned once in a while. I just.... need a relationship..... no more of this friends with benefits crap..... I just really really need someone there.... to just sortof be there, ya know? I mean, you may be saying, oh, what about your friends.. they are there! But no.. it's just not the same..... your friends can give you guidance or a shoulder to cry on... but it's not the same, it's not a boyfriends kiss, or warm embrace.... it's just not.... and there's nothing that replaces that..... so that's what I need. The End