So, that old saying... it really is true. "Absense Makes the Heart Grow Fonder" So deeply true. Everything went from being what seemed like a ride aimed at destruction, to perfection. Everything is amazing, and I never want it to change between Ben and I. I love that boy! It's so amazing to find someone who is just so what you've always wanted. Ben is the kind of guy that girls like me think about, constructing on their own with little traits they love. But, for me, instead of having to live my wishes one guy at a time, I've found the person who encompasses everything that I love in someone. Anyway... So, tomorrow is Christmas. I'm pretty excited, despite how hard things were going previously. I've decided, no matter how hard shit gets in life, you just have to live through it and make it as good as you can. I've grown pessimistic through the years, and from recent events, I've learned I need to put together all the wonderful things, and shine a little light on my life. I have Ben, I have my friends and family (as much as can be said for that), and a roof over my head. I am not religious, but I've just sortof been awakened.... so God, Buddha, Allah, Santa Claus... whoever's out there listening.... Thank You, and Merry Christmas.