Before I start... I must clarify that I am not one of those abusive relationship people... Essentially, the little things that your significant other does, are not meant to be hurtful... those little wisecracks and sarcastic comments that were cute so long ago.... but why is it that at any given point, everything changes? These little things that were just part of his/her charm in the beginning suddenly bring you to tears...is it I who has changed, or he?? The hardest part of it all is when you feel that ache for a part of you that has been sitting empty for a long time.... as if someone has cut a chunk out of your very existance... that feeling that there's something more... but you aren't quite getting it.... But what do you do when you find it, and it makes things even more confusing? Maybe you find what completes the puzzle, but you don't know what to do or are scared.... Also, being a strong believer in signs... It's terrifying to see how easily some of these "signs" come together in your life, showing you what to do, but just vaguely enough that you can't do it. You think it will make things better, but there is another part of you that just knows it will come back to haunt you, or that it's a huge mistake. Perhaps these signs are blinding me from the moment? I don't even know anymore. The only thing I truly want to have right now is for my boyfriend to see that I'm hurting, and recognize that I need to be loved. Not that he doesn't love me... but it's like, love isn't something that is shown in words, but in actions. You can tell someone you love them a million times, but it's the person who holds them when they are sad that gets through to them. It should've been you... it should've been you.