couldnt find alex at lunch. i still cant really believe im going out w him. we kissed yesterday... it was the weirdest kiss ive ever had. not spur of the moment natural like w dustin. not smooth n sweet like w maria. w her our mouths were like a rhythm, like we were tryna eat each other. w alex it was like... his mouth was unyeilding. his kiss is so refined.

so anyway. at lunch 2day we all went 2 our table n he wasnt there. i felt like total crap. i have a headache, a scratchy throat, n im so fucking tired... n i had no one 2 talk 2, so i felt even worse. maria was sitting on the edge by andres (yea theyre dating now) so i was just watching everyone getting sadder n sadder. except jenn... she was cracking me up so much! i think she was high or something. if she wasnt then shes just crazy hilarious. that was the first time i laughed so hard all day.