im so angry mom changed her mind again and now were gonna go 2 greece if we can get this flight thats on monday. i think the only reason she did it was cuz she doesnt like conflicts between her n dad, which pisses me off... shes supposed 2 be a strong woman not be giving in2 that asshole just cuz he gets mad. anyways me n him got in another fight last night. hes been in a pissy mood ever since hes been on leave, i think hes got 2 much time on his hands. the only time he talks 2 me is if hes tryin to start a fight. on thursday ms ellwell called cuz i was supposed 2 read her some of my poems over the phone cuz i forgot 2 give them to her at school and shes gonna try to get a poetry journal together over the break so we can hand them out when school starts again. the first time she called i was out walking, so dad told me she called. then later she called again but i didnt wanna talk 2 her then bc weve only got one phone now n its the one downstairs where and him and mom were right there and i didnt want them hearing my poems cuz ive got personal shit in there they dont know about so i got her number n told her id call her later. well when i got off the phone dads all bitching at me like whys she suddenly calling here all the time wat r u up 2 are u in trouble again blah blah and im like no nothings up, n hes like well something has 2 be up if she keeps ringing my phone off the hook. oooo he was making me so mad. so we stopped talking. then after the greece thing on friday morning when me and mom werent gonna go he kept on ignoring me and started ignoring her 2. then yesterday they were kinda talking again but only cuz she said she would go 2 greece now, but me n him still werent. until last night, i was in my room about 2 go for a walk n my back was to the door cuz i was puttin on my flipflops n getting my keys n he was about 2 leave 2 go 2 the store so hes right outside my door n suddenly he just comes in and starts yelling at me saying like my ass is hanging out of my pants and its disgusting and if my pants dont fit me i dont need 2 be wearing them and that i need 2 show him a little respect and all this other shit. i was like wat the hell. i mean yea my pants are really baggy but theyve always been like that so wats the big deal all the sudden. and my ass was not hanging out cuz i had my big jacket on and it covers like most of my ass. i hate his fucking guts. so i went for a walk but id just had it w all his shit i ended up at the playground crumpled on a swing bawling for about an hour. i cant take it anymore i cant stand him. i wanted 2 go 2 sarahs but guess where she went on vacation... greece. so i was all alone. i just really wanted 2 die.