its lunch and im all alone. courtney n maria both have detention. (yea were all friends again) im so confused right now about a lot of shit. wat should i do about natashia? maybe shes flirting w/ me but maybe shes just playing around, n i just take everything so seriously b/c i want her 2 b serious.i mean i no shes like crazy over sam. courtney thinx she knows i like her and thats y she acts like this w/ me. i dont know wat to do, and i still havnt had the chance to bring up the lesbian thing w/ her b/c kaylas always there in journalism sitting right by me and i dont want her to hear anything im saying. which she probly would. then ferias this weekend n moms saying she might not even let me go cuz the rides r so "dangerous". ppl got thrown off n killed last year or sum crap like that. right now i just feel like bitching about everything. i was all crazy laughing yesterday, shoulda known thered be another mood swing. maybe its the weather tho, it was so hot n sunny all week now 2day its cloudy n sad.only like 15 days till courtney leaves and i dont know wat im gonna do. shes my best friend ive had in a loooong time...im gonna be so depressed, god i hate the fucking military. dustins in here i wonder if its cuz he saw me come in. hes weird like that n he nose im by myself. we had this terra nova test thing again in english but we had 2 watch a movie first.i totally zoned out n drew jem n josh on that blank paper ms bohon gave us 2 take notes on. i probly bombed all the questions, i bsed my way thru most of them,even tho it was only like 5. my immortal just came on. just wat i need, this song always makes me wanna cry my eyes out. i need 2 get a grip.