courtney left tuesday. monday was our last time 2gether... it was so sad. me n maria went up 2 the lodge n we hung out awhile in took all these pix. 2 soon my mom came 2 pick us up n we cryed so much... we hung in the doorway trying 2 say goodbye, it was so hard 2 walk away knowing itd be a long time till id c her agian. we had this group hug n when we pulled back bawling courtneys like "i just wanted 2 tell u guys ur the best friends i ever had" n were like "were gonna miss u so much!" then shes like "it cant end like this. we gotta promise well meet up some day" and we all pinky promised. after we dropped maria off at her house we got home n i went straight 2 my room n just collapsed on my bed sobbing 4 like an hour. finally when i stopped i went 2 take a shower but i just broke down all over agian. and when i went 2 bed i heard the reason by hoobastank come on zrock n cryed myself 2 sleep... i feel like ive got this hole in me, somethings missing, and its her.