lunch is so boring anymore. courtneys in the states and marias always got detention. but even when shes with me i feel like shes not there b/c theres nothing to really say. i dont know if things are always so funky w/ us b/c i cant loosen up or if its her whose weird. ahhhhhhhh!!! i woke up this morning and my hamster was dead. i think i killed her. i ruin everything i try 2 love.